During this season, I find myself standing at a crossroads.
Am I lost?
To be honest, there was a time when I was, but my Lord, He came to find me. So I am no longer lost, but I am waiting….
Do any of the roads before me lead to destruction?
It’s quite the opposite, for I’ve been down those roads before… but, just like before, my Lord has brought me through them, safely.
Yet, as I focus on the image of the crossroads before me, I notice there are no road signs.
There certainly could be, if I choose to lean onto my own understanding of things and use human logic to derive names for the roads before me. It is tempting, given our human nature, but no…! I choose instead to wait…to wait on Him…to wait for Him.
He knows I am here, He knows I am standing at a crossroads, yet He delays, knowing that my testing will only result in an increase in endurance, patience, trust, wisdom and faith. He knows that at the appointed time, I will be ready to embark down the road that leads to my destiny; the one He has pre-designed for me, long before the earth began.
There is a hint of loneliness though -or should I say aloneness – as very few people seem to be aware that I am standing here. Very few are willing to take the time to understand, but I guess that is because they are either standing at their own crossroads, or trying to find a way through their own maze of destructive paths, with or without Him.
It is difficult at times to just wait, when we are so accustomed to being on the move, however it is when we are still that we can truly begin to know our God, just as the Bible states in the book of Psalms:
Be still and know that I am God…
For it is in the stillness that we are able to silence our own thoughts and listen to His. It’s in the stillness we can step into His peace, as we put all thoughts under subjection and allow our spirit to come alive and become one with the Father. It is here we can sense His presence, hear His voice, and feel His love, His glorious liquid love flooding our entire being, filling us to overflowing…..a sensation that nothing in this world can recreate!
Then there is the excitement of having to wait on the Lord, since I know that whichever path He eventually leads me to, it will be the one He has chosen for me, not the one I would have chosen for myself. My Father knows the plans He has in store for me, plans of peace and well-being, not of disaster, but plans to give me a future and a hope.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
So as I stand at the crossroads, I will put my trust in the Lord as I wait for Him to come take my hand and lead me on……